Turning 18 + Dealing with Racist Jerks

 As many of you that follow me on Snapchat    (boob_ghouls if you don’t) or any of other social networks know I recently turned 18. July 8th exactly. It was a bittersweet turning 18 for many reasons but I’ll get to that another time.

The day before my birthday I got my phone turned back on to see the recent deaths of two unarmed black men; Philando Castile & Alton Sterling. I’m so devastated to hear the news, but can’t exactly say I surprised.

As with many of the attacks towards myself and the rest of the black community it’s no longer becoming a shock, but mentally draining. Seeing your fellow brothers and sisters in the news being murdered brutally whether that might be by police, or a regular person. It’s something you almost become numb to.

To share my condolences for the fellow members of my community I made a snap story saying

”R.I.P to Philando Castile & Alton Sterling, no matter where you grow up. How educated you are. How many white friends or partners you may have. Or how respectful you might be to a police officer. You will always have a target on your back if you’re black.”

I don’t view who watches my snapchat. But someone who I’ve spoken to occasionally on Snapchat just for general conversation felt their need to share their opinion on my snaps.

I was absolutely  disgusted in the response I received from him. I’ve spoken on race issues many times before on my snapchat and he’s never said anything. I can’t exactly say that I’m shocked my the appalling and ruthless comments made by him. But I’m rather disappointed that we have people in the world like this. That would rather spew ableism and biased stereotypes than educate themselves on issues that are happening in the world now.

CW:Ableism & Swearing:




Here is my reply to his first statement: CW: Swearing

”First of all, I don’t understand how the hell what’s happening now is a laughing matter. So cut the “LMFAO” and don’t use ableism’s with me. 

A black person being mean to you is not how racism works kiddo. I’m sorry that a black kid was mean to you. But no one has time to hear your whiny ass. When Racism is built off of systematic oppression.

So please explain how the hell are blacks special? When we’re out here getting murdered and killed by police regularly. That doesn’t make us seem fucking special, does it? Whether we’re at a store getting followed, getting pulled over and shot. Or unarmed and getting killed on video camera. There’s not enough evidence to prove to you people we’re not just saying BlackLivesMatter to fucking say it. We’re saying it because of people like you who are so caught up in their privilege and anti-blackness can’t fucking see that this what’s happening now isn’t a coincidence. It isn’t blacks being victims. It’s us speaking out about shit no one has wanted to pay attention to.

Oh and all lives matter? No one is disputing that other lives don’t matter but it’s very clear in news and media that black lives doesn’t. When the hell has All lives mattered in America? When it was built off the oppression of blacks and other POC.

You really are blinded by your damn privileged if you cannot grasp what’s happening to blacks now.”

He proceeded to use offensive ableism’s:



I decided to block him after I realized that there was no point in arguing with someone that doesn’t want to listen.

It wasn’t the best start or kick of turning 18 but it definitely made me realize the next day how much hate we have in the world. And how there are people like him, that would rather throw hate and laugh about murders that are happening in our country than take them serious.

I’ll be back with a personal update about myself tomorrow.

If you haven’t already follow me:



Dealing with feeling unappreciated 

I don’t believe you should ever feel bad for expressing your feelings in a relationship. But yet I keep finding myself in those relationships. 
Things run good, and then when problems arrives. I’m suddenly arguing or trying to pick a fight. 

 When all I’m trying to do is talk and hear the other point of view and work to resolve the issue.

I’m tired of opening myself up to people and not feeling appreciated. I’m tired of it. I’m tired of putting effort into relationships and not receiving anything in return.

I know I’m not the problem but I’m tired of building relationships where I feel like I am. 

I’m sorry for not posting in a week, or two. I’ve been dealing with a lot of things. I’ll be sure to update you guys on it tomorrow. 

5 Ingredient Cheesecake

”That awkward moment when you go to the doctor to find out you gained 10lbs and the next day make a cheesecake.’



If there is one dessert that I can say is my one of my favorites it would definitely be cheesecake. I’m a sucker for rich, creamy, dairy filled things. Which goes with my obsession of cheese and ice cream.

My grandmother always use to make cheesecake when I was younger I would remember helping her squeeze the lemon juice into her no bake lemon cheesecakes. And helping her zest. This was my first attempt at making a no bake cheesecake; and for a first timer, I did damn pretty good.

This cheesecake is pretty easy to make considering its a 5 ingredient cheesecake. And because its a no bake you don’t have to worry about any folding, whipping, or separating eggs. You just simply dump everything into a bowl and mix.


Processed with VSCO with hb2 preset

Processed with VSCO with hb2 preset

Now, the only problem I had with this cheesecake is the mixture. I don’t have a hand mixture. So you could imagine the difficulty of trying to whip soft cream cheese without having your wrist give out on you. I didn’t manage to get rid of all the cream cheese lumps. But I got rid of large ones. Overall it’s pretty creamy and smooth mixture.

The topping I made is pretty optional to say the least. It just a fresh strawberry, fresh mint, and agave macerated strawberries. Ya know? Pshh No big deal.

Processed with VSCO with hb2 preset

Processed with VSCO with hb2 preset

Enough of the chatting, here’s how you make a 5 Ingredient Cheesecake

1 package of cream cheese

½ cup of sour cream

2 tablespoons of freshly squeezed lemon juice

½ cup of sugar

1 tablespoon of vanilla extract.

Pre-made graham cracker crust

Start off by beating cream cheese until smooth. Add in your sour cream, sugar, and vanilla. Beat until smooth and slightly fluffy add in lemon juice and chill over night.

For the strawberry mixture mix

5 large sliced strawberries

1 tablespoon of agave

½ tablespoon of freshly chopped mint.

Refrigerate until cheesecake is perfect chilled and firm. Serve with optional strawberry topping.

Processed with VSCO with hb2 preset

Processed with VSCO with hb2 preset